loves/loathes

Well, I suppose it is time for my second edition of loves & loathes. Here we go...

Loves:
-coming home to a clean and organized room. hubs rocks.
-i had the most brilliant thought to use my grandmother's name as my future daughters middle name. JOY. isn't it perfect!? Her name is actually Guiseppina, but my grandfather calls her Joy. i don't know how i have never thought of it before
-my nephew will be here any day now. i will officially be an AUNT!
-my best friend has a BF and she's so happy it makes me happy
-celebrating my other best friend's Halloween birthday party and making the costumes... I didn't have a baby to dress up, so might as well dress up myself and enjoy it...

Loathes:
-a super duper crappy cycle.
-no one to talk to that understands anything about infertility.
-having another Halloween baby-less. i vividly remember last year, so sure that it would be my last one.
-being tired and depressed pretty much 24/7
-having to take a break from TTC and not having a chance at my summer baby
-it's November, which means hubs mustache has sprouted :|

Well, that's it folks! xx

november first two thousand eleven

Can it really be November 1st? Today is the due date of my sister and brother in-laws first baby. The one that will make me an auntie.  The one that was not supposed to exist, but will. I am happy for this.

It also marks the 19th month of our TTC journey, and the beginning of a two month TTC break. A much needed break.

This cycle has been a bad one. Many strange things happened.
-late o
-no spotting until 25ishdpo. usually starts around 11dpo
-bad cramping for the past 7 days
-no sore and large bbs
-lots of BFNs - I can't bare to see another one of those
-AF has still not arrived 

Tomorrow hubs and I have an appointment with our RE. We will be discussing starting IUI in January, and my messed up cycle.